Thank you for this. First of all, I am so sorry for the pain and trauma you have been through. I have been de-constructing for the last few years - not from Jesus but from the systems in the church that do harm and it has been...rough. You put into words what I couldn’t express but have felt for years. Bless you for sharing your pain and your healing and hope with us. p.s. I am thankful the church didn’t squelch your gifts and personality. I always love seeing your insta posts. Everything thing from a Target try-on to a Word we need to hear. Keep it up!
thank you. I'm sobbing in my car reading this, because i grew up very similar (sovereign grace ministries church) with an abusive father. i walked always as an adult and into an Acts 29 church, which felt "so free and not abusive" to me bc of the chains I had come from. yes, Jesus met me in all these places. But also... I have never heard another describe the deep, deep self-loathing I've also battled that was solely rooted in my gender. i just COULD NOT believe i could be a woman and not be dangerous. i believed i had to keep all my femininity tied down, boxed up, locked away. to keep others safe. bc it was the Most Evil. i no longer live there thanks to a wonderful therapist and a God who shows up and shows us that He adores women. He really, actually, loves us not in spite but because we are his daughters. Anyway here's a really long therapy session of a comment just to say how very very much your voice is needed. for all women who's souls were slaughtered in these churches. for all women like me, who grew up in our formative years believing we were worthless until we could have babies. for all the future women. may no girl ever again walk out of a church door feeling like God hates her. feeling like her womanhood is an evil creature. may the dismantling of power-hungry abusive systems continue, and may decades from now the church be known as a haven for women where all folks thrive & grow & heal.
Yes, girl, yes! We are ezers! A word used for Eve and the Holy Spirit! I’m so sorry for this trauma you have experienced. Sadly, I can relate. I love seeing how the healing is happening in and through you. PS. Can we talk about this in Cancun?!
Thank you so much for this.
Thank you for this. First of all, I am so sorry for the pain and trauma you have been through. I have been de-constructing for the last few years - not from Jesus but from the systems in the church that do harm and it has been...rough. You put into words what I couldn’t express but have felt for years. Bless you for sharing your pain and your healing and hope with us. p.s. I am thankful the church didn’t squelch your gifts and personality. I always love seeing your insta posts. Everything thing from a Target try-on to a Word we need to hear. Keep it up!
thank you. I'm sobbing in my car reading this, because i grew up very similar (sovereign grace ministries church) with an abusive father. i walked always as an adult and into an Acts 29 church, which felt "so free and not abusive" to me bc of the chains I had come from. yes, Jesus met me in all these places. But also... I have never heard another describe the deep, deep self-loathing I've also battled that was solely rooted in my gender. i just COULD NOT believe i could be a woman and not be dangerous. i believed i had to keep all my femininity tied down, boxed up, locked away. to keep others safe. bc it was the Most Evil. i no longer live there thanks to a wonderful therapist and a God who shows up and shows us that He adores women. He really, actually, loves us not in spite but because we are his daughters. Anyway here's a really long therapy session of a comment just to say how very very much your voice is needed. for all women who's souls were slaughtered in these churches. for all women like me, who grew up in our formative years believing we were worthless until we could have babies. for all the future women. may no girl ever again walk out of a church door feeling like God hates her. feeling like her womanhood is an evil creature. may the dismantling of power-hungry abusive systems continue, and may decades from now the church be known as a haven for women where all folks thrive & grow & heal.
Yes, girl, yes! We are ezers! A word used for Eve and the Holy Spirit! I’m so sorry for this trauma you have experienced. Sadly, I can relate. I love seeing how the healing is happening in and through you. PS. Can we talk about this in Cancun?!
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❤️ courageous