Boy are we walking through trusting the Lord right now and not understanding!
We have had to make some big decisions lately, decisions I never thought we would even consider. This last month, we decided to put our lake house on the market. We have wanted to downsize at this point, it was becoming more of a burden than a blessing.
Something changed. I couldn’t put my finger on it, but I brought it to God.
Then I talked with my husband about it. He was very resistant to the idea at first, thinking we were walking away from the beloved lake entirely, the community, and the kids' water skiing/pyramid skills they worked so hard to build.
Slowly but surely we felt God removing our white-knuckled grip from the house, not everything else. It is a strange thing to not walk by hindsight and instead walk by faith.
We have no idea if we will get to keep it or sell it, but I will tell you this.
Regardless of my understanding, I am standing firm in obedience and God’s nearness is my reward, not a home. Not a dream for what that home was supposed to be: A retreat place and then a Pandemic hit just as we started to receive people. That’s actually so ironic and funny! But coincidentle, no.
God is doing something we don’t understand. I don’t have a bow to put on it for you, but I know that He’s used a painful letting go of dreams to give me something better.
He’s done it before and he’ll do it again.
Is there a time you felt God asking you to be obedient in some way and you were resistant ? Maybe you have hindsight now, maybe yours can’t be tied in a bow-- you’re in the middle.
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With you #theCultivatingKind,
Jami
I am right there in the resistance stage - it's not a fun place to be. I love your transparency. <3 Thank you
Right before my husband and I got married he was offered a position at a church. We were poor college students, him about to graduate and me still in the middle of school, and this part time gig offered security. Great! He’ll work at this church part time and teach full time and we’ll be rich (lol). Meanwhile, we both had a nagging feeling in our gut we ignored. It didn’t feel right, I felt a nudge to walk away and not accept the position. But God this would really work out so nicely for us! We’d be financially secure and our parents would approve and it’d be great. We both ignored that nudge from Holy Spirit and accepted the position. 3 weeks later due to unhealthy circumstances and a toxic environment we finally realized what the Lord had been protecting us from and had to resigned. It was humiliating. With no other job in sight, God made a way and a position opened up at a local church. It paid less half of what he would have made in the other scenario and was full time, but man, did our spirits feel so much peace about it. Flash forward and God has used that experience to constantly remind me to trust him and his provision. It has made me quick to obey His voice and to trust Him. The job my husband ended up taking at the local church has been really challenging at times for our whole family, but we have continually had a peace that we are where the Lord has us in this season and He has cared and provided for us in ways we never could have imagined through it.